I am going to level with you. I wanted to start my own business for quite some time. I knew I had the tools to provide my clients with what they would need. I knew I was smart and capable in that area. I knew I was good at the job. I was always willing to invest in learning how to be even better in that area too. Now, nearly a year in, it’s so ridiculous to admit the reason why I waited to start my own marketing business.
Or least what quarterly taxes represented to me personally.I know. It’s embarrassing. I would love to put the emoji of the monkey covering his eyes here. I remember doing some research about starting my own business and beginning to freelance and I read about quarterly taxes. Um, at the time, it took every part of me to get myself together to do my own. I mean, I had to motivate myself for weeks in order to spend a day doing it. And now quarterly taxes?!
I know. It’s embarrassing. I would love to put the emoji of the monkey covering his eyes here. I remember doing some research about starting my own business and beginning to freelance and I read about quarterly taxes. Um, at the time, it took every part of me to get myself together to do my personal taxes (and still an accountant helped me). I mean, I had to motivate myself for weeks in order to spend a day doing it. And now quarterly taxes?!
Um. I will continue to work in the corporate world, thank you. So I told myself.
Quarterly Taxes also represented a whole other part of my own business that scared me, a fear that probably dates back to some high school math teacher. I’m great at thinking of creative and innovative ways to market for my clients and then executing those plans. But numbers? Figuring out my overhead? No one ever taught me to balance my checkbook! Could I do those things? Back then, I told myself that I could not.
So I put the dream off…over a fear that is pretty easily conquered. I mean, all I needed to do was some research, talk to as many experts as I could, be a sponge, and get organized (whether that was software or something else). Basically, all I had to do was the same things I do when I learn any new skill (and I love learning! That’s the thing that kills me when I think about it now: I love learning about anything! Why would this new arena be an exception?) but it held me back. I believed the lie that I was incapable for far too long.
I’m writing this post after spending an hour getting the month of April reconciled in QuickBooks (a seriously amazing tool…if you are interested in it for your business, please ask me about it. I know someone who not only sells it but helps you to be successful with the software. She cares about your success. Also, please know I get NOTHING out of mentioning this or her. But I believe in this software and I believe in this expert. She is such a gem. It’s been a great tool!)
I’m doing it, you guys. It’s still not my favorite thing in the world to do. But I’m capable. I’m doing the same things I did when I wanted to learn something creative, like photography:
- I got my hands on as many books as possible (I am a reader so…)
- I spoke with experts
- I took classes
- I tried to be a sponge in every way and with everyone I talked to
- I sought out advice and asked for help when I needed it
- I got the necessary tools for me to be successful once I knew a little bit of what I was doing and then learned more through those tools
I think we all have those little lies that keep us from attempting our bigger dreams. I’m sorry I wasn’t good at precalc (let alone calc) but that does not disqualify me from running my own business (including the numbers side of things!). I would say I wish I would have realized this earlier but God’s timing is the best timing and I was learning more about my chosen profession (the non-numbers side) in those years so it all worked out.
There are still days when my eyes are bleary from staring at numbers but that isn’t where I spend the majority of my time. It’s not my favorite thing to do but I am capable.
I am capable.
Meanwhile, I am still growing my business. If you would like more info, email me.
What’s holding you back, big or small, from trying that new thing?
P.S. For me, online dating fell into this category too but I’m not ready to write a blog post about it yet. 😉