It’s just that a person can only juggle so many balls in the air at once (even a trained clown like me…har har har). And I dropped the ball of this blog in order to juggle my business (because: rent and food) and family stuff (truth: this past month has been in the top ten craziest months of my life particularly–but not only–because of two family members with serious health stuff and trying to help out as much as I can with my people…Speaking of, prayers for two of my close family members’ health are appreciated right now).
If you have my phone number and you have contacted me and haven’t heard from me, it’s not personal. I have had to tell people, “Seriously. It isn’t you. I know it sounds like I am ghosting you but really, this month is nutso.” And it wasn’t as if the Spring was slow. I honestly have SO many things to tell you about what is going on with me. And it’s juicy (because let’s be real, I can’t tell you the juiciest stuff because…you know, other people’s feelings and also, privacy).
But what are these except excuses? Here is the thing: I have put blood, sweat, and tears (but rarely tears) into this space and I am not ready to just let it die. I’ve mostly loved it here. And it’s mostly been a labor of love. A labor I need to take a step back from. Because rent and food. But also because I just needed a break. I probably needed to just say that to start out with. But the truth is, I didn’t realize it until it was actually happening. (Also we are coming up on our third anniversary! WHAT?!)
So what’s going to change here? Well, I am basically going to do me. There may be less pinnable content and more of the stuff I like to write about and coincidentally, you all seem to respond to. Not every post is going to have a pinnable graphic or picture and hey, listen. I am fine with that. I feel like for a long time I was in this rat race (nothing against anyone doing the blog hustle. In fact, I tip my cap to you because I obviously don’t have the stamina for it).
I’ll be here more often than I have been here these past few months but I may not be here every day of the week (but also, maybe I will be here five times a week again!). I can tell you that it’s going to be more me and you can take it or leave it but the people I love here in this blog world seem to like me so I feel like it will be okay.
To my blogging friends, I have missed you! I am going to be honest. I have been totally out of the blogging world and I haven’t read your stuff. So please forgive me. I’ll get back into it. Or I am as of tomorrow which as you are reading this, is today.
If you are non-blogging friend, but a reader of the blog. Hello! Hopefully, you’ll come back and read.
And yes, there is some crazy stuff happening in the world and in this country. And I have thoughts. But before I come at you with them (and let’s be real…they probably won’t be original but to not speak up on these matters would go against what I believe in and my personal integrity), I felt like I should give you some explanations and a plan for the future of this space. So there.
Hope you enjoyed these snaps I took with the roomie. I did not have a pretty picture with lots of white space and pink peonies for this post, plus it wasn’t fitting. Now, if I would have had the thought earlier in the day to write this, I could have put on clown makeup and done a photoshoot because of my previous clown/juggling metaphor.
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MISSED YOU. LOVE YOU!