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According to my roommate who is an Improviser here in Chicago, one is supposed to run toward the fear. Once you figure out the thing you are afraid of, do it. And then that thing isn’t so scary anymore.
She was taught this in improvising but she applies it to life. She was encouraging me to do the same thing.
And I’m trying. I’m leaning into the fear. I’m growing. I feel it. And I think the more I grow, the more aware I am of those parts of myself that have atrophied. For example, I need to forgive myself for some things. I need to extend grace to myself. I’m scared to do it but I am leaning into it.
Psalm 56:3 has been my touchstone for as long as I can remember: “When I am afraid, I put my trust in you.” So I trust him as I lean and though it makes me feel slightly better, the leaning is still uncomfortable, like a slow moving rollercoaster–not necessarily bad but funny and strange. I laugh a lot at the weirdness of it all. I grimace and make awkward silly faces.
I would rather be uncomfortable and growing than stagnant and complacent. And though I can’t grow in all directions at once, I’ve picked one and I’m leaning into the fear. Sooner rather than later, there will be another fear to conquer because this one won’t be so big and scary anymore, and I’ll lean into that. I refuse to live a deeply rooted life, one where I am unable to lean, unable to move towards the fear.
What are you afraid of? Run towards it.
One: Last weekend, I was in the good ole’ Illinois farmland for one of my best friend’s Bridal Shower. I am so thrilled for her and excited for the upcoming wedding. We were even able to do some really beautiful photoshoot of her and of her sister and the two of them together. You can see some of this here and here from earlier in the week. But I am holding off on sharing more just because I didn’t want to inundate you with so much pretty at once! Seriously, what a dream.
Two: Confession time, you guys. So this wedding is pretty close and I kind of put off getting my dress altered because of stupid insecurities and this new medicine I am on that has me gaining weight. But the good news is that I discovered that during my move I donated the shoes I had planned on wearing with this dress so I had to get news ones (which kind of seems like bad news because I am in a complete spending freeze but for this wedding) but they are the perfect height so I don’t need to get the dress altered. I also finally got my “styling details” down for this boho chic affair with help from my roommate and Bauble Bar. I’ll be sharing some inspo and hints next week because even though this is not my normal go-to style, they are all pieces that will amp up my own wardrobe which is always nice…because I am the kind of ride or die bridesmaid that will buy a specific look for you even if I will never wear it again in my life. So, yay!
Three: My roommate bought a ballet bar on Craig’s List and also a subscription to Physique and we are doing the Get Fit Fast 2 Week Challenge on our lunch breaks. It is super challenging. My understanding is that it is Pure Barre on steroids but I am sure I will have some Pure Barre purists (haha) disagree. Whatever. It is super hard. But it feels so good when I’m done. It’s also a workout compatible with my illness. Still loving riding my bike too!
I’m NeenBee on Snap!
I’ve had it forever but I have been hesitant to share it publically but oh, whatever.
Four: I finally bought a bra that fit me. And the crowd goes wild.
Five: I just bought some nectarines and I hope they are juicy and delicious.
This week, today. Get it? Like John Oliver? Only less smart and less British. This has been a long week in a lot of ways and man, I am feeling it today. At the same time, some things are falling into place so I’ll take it. I’m ready for some easy days, you know? I’m going to summarize the week in GIFs, okay? Cool.
Don’t even think I am phoning this in. Do you know how long it took to find the right animated GIFs for my week? And you do not want to know how long it took to load them because everything kept timing out. Whatever, man. Par for this week’s course, I suppose.
I told you I was back to blogging:
Riding my bike (love) & Physique workouts (really hard):